A few days ago, I got an email from indie author Tara St. Pierre. A special email, because unlike most authors who would just toss a message at you without even knowing what your blog is about, she had clearly made the time to peruse my review policy and take my likes and dislikes into account. So, to make a long story short, I readily agreed to feature her YA contemporary-with-a-touch-of-sci-fi novel Just a Few Inches on my blog. You all know I have a soft spot for indie authors - though I don't say yes to just about everyone. But Tara's book has a great message at its core, not to mention that - like I said - she was really nice to begin with. And, ice on the cake, AFTER our deal was made, she also volunteered to offer two ebook copies of Just a Few Inches for me to give away!
Now...before you guys run down to the end of this post to fill the form...don't you want to know what Just a Few Inches is about? and also get the chance to read a guest post by its author, peppered with exclusive excerpts from the book you won't find on Amazon? Yes, you do :). So here goes...
Maintaining the required cheerleader smile, Janelle chastised me through her clenched teeth. “Higher, Carrie.”
“This is as high as she goes,” one of the other girls whispered so she wouldn’t be heard over the music.
In an unexpected display of professionalism, Janelle bent her knees to even out Trish’s footholds, and then she rolled her eyes at me.
“Did you get shorter?” snapped the girl closest to Janelle while eyeing me up and down. “What’s up with that?”
The moment I dreaded had come. Without my heels, I couldn’t come close to making up my lost six inches, and Janelle and her clique had caught me. My heart sank as my loose sleeves slid down my raised arms.
While waiting for the cue to release Trish, my body quivered from the pain in my overstretched muscles. At the last possible moment, my arms gave way, but Trish jumped and we caught her as if there hadn’t been an issue. I sighed in relief, but my entire body felt deflated.
Once the routine ended, I ran for the locker room. Trish and Lauren followed and found me bawling my eyes out. Sitting on the bench beside me, Trish said, “You know, Carrie, I really respect what you’re doing.”
“You mean almost letting you fall?”
“No. You’re not letting this thing that’s happening to you stop you from doing what you want to. I don’t know if I’d be able to do that.”
Lauren sat on the other side of me and put her arm around me. “Trish, go tell Ms. Martin that Carrie’s—”
“Female problems.” Trish hopped up and skipped away. “Got it.”
“It’s going to be all right, Carrie.” Lauren let me cry into her shoulder. “Just try to keep your mind off it.”
But I couldn’t keep my mind off it. When I went to change, my skirt fell into a puddle around my ankles as soon as I removed the final safety pin. And once back in Amy’s clothes, the sliver of midriff showing that morning had been sealed up. People were shorter in the evening, I tried to rationalize to myself, but I knew that I was continually getting shorter.
And I couldn’t keep other people’s minds off it. On the bus ride home, I overheard some of the other girls on the squad whispering about Trish’s near-accident being caused by my strange new height. Trish helped me tune them out by letting me listen to her earphones, and I slumped in my seat to avoid being seen.
When we got back to Montvale, Todd found me outside the gym. After bending down and kissing me on the forehead, he put his arm around me and asked, “What’s goin’ on? Why are you shorter than you used to be?”
Before I could answer, Janelle strutted by and said, “Hey, Todd. Great playing this season.”
“Thanks, Janelle. Great cheering.”
“That’s sweet of you to say.” She touched his shoulder and then turned to me. “You hear that, Carrie? Great cheering.”
“Yeah,” I said, trying not to look directly at her.
“You shouldn’t slouch like that. It’s bad for your posture, and people with bad posture aren’t attractive.” Janelle kept her back perfectly straight but wiggled her behind as she walked away.
Even back in three-inch heels, I couldn’t hide my smaller height from Janelle since that cat was already out of the bag. In my despair, I convinced myself that since her previous plan to steal Todd away from me at the dance had failed miserably, she would use our difference in height. I looked up at Todd’s chin, which had always fit securely atop my head. It was a special part of our relationship, and that night, I’d have done anything to keep our relationship.
“Why don’t you tell me what’s wrong?”
“Let’s go to your place, like we had planned.”
Before long, we were in his living room eating a pizza we had grabbed on the way there. I wasn’t hungry, and I nibbled on one slice while he wolfed down five. As I sat back and sank into the high sofa, my feet didn’t touch the ground—a sensation I wasn’t accustomed to yet.
When he finished eating, he dimmed the lights. If I had been thinking clearly, I would have realized he was setting a certain mood.
He put his arm around me. “Aren’t you gonna tell me what’s wrong?”
“I’m shrinking.” I leaned against his shoulder. “I’m seeing a specialist tomorrow.”
“Why didn’t you tell me before?”
I knew I had to say something, but I wasn’t sure if I wanted to start from the beginning. If I told him I took the pills to fit in a dress because I suspected Janelle was trying to steal him away from me, he’d probably think I was crazy. And then even crazier if he knew I tried to cover it up while hoping it was only a temporary thing. But the reason that spilled out of my mouth was that I was afraid he wouldn’t like me anymore.
“Why wouldn’t I?”
I stood up. “Look at me!”
He squinted. “What?”
“These are my little stepsister’s clothes.”
He stood and looked down at me. “You look great.”
“You’re, like, more than a foot taller than me now. Talk about lopsided.”
He shrugged. “So?”
“But I can’t be your custom-sized chin rest.”
“You think I’d dump you for that?” He reached over to put his arm around me but gently set it atop my head. “Besides, now you can be my custom-sized arm rest, Shorter-Stuff.”
I knew he was only trying to make a joke, but it wasn’t funny. I turned away and folded my arms, but he wrapped his arms around me from behind and held me close to him. “Will this make you feel better?”
When his chin touched down atop my head, I giggled, imagining him hunched over behind me. “A little,” I replied.
“You look kinda cute shorter.” He squeezed me a little tighter. “Like you need someone big and strong like me to protect you.”
I laughed out loud, perhaps the first time I had since I discovered what was happening to me. Todd was great. I didn’t want to let go of him.
And you know what? I was overjoyed to think that I had lost some weight, even though I really didn’t need to lose any. I was a cheerleader then, so I was fairly athletic. I had a boyfriend then, so at least one person found me attractive. I thought losing that little bit of weight would make me more confident and more attractive. Sure, there’s nothing wrong with looking healthy or pretty, but at what cost? I certainly wouldn’t want to pay for a little weight loss with so much loss of height.
Some news broadcasts do a brief daily feature giving my estimated height, and I know there are a few websites tracking my up-to-the minute height. I checked them out, and today they say I’m about two feet, four and a half inches tall—gotta include that half-inch because at my current height, I’ll take every half-inch I can get. When you’re counting down your inches like the days until the end of the school year, each one becomes much more precious. I don’t want to lose any more, but I don’t have much choice.
I’m not fishing for attention or sympathy, though I truly appreciate all the sympathy I’ve received. I just want to tell the truth. Once, I was thrilled that some of my measurements had gotten smaller. But now, I just want to stop getting smaller, even if it means I’ll be stuck this size for the rest of my life. I’ll find a way to accept it. I’d much rather have a body—any body, at any size, even this one—than to shrink away to nothing and have no body whatsoever.
Wow, this sounds like an interesting book, so unique. Who doesn't love indie authors? Especially if they take the time to contact you personally. So sweet!
ReplyDeleteYes, it's a unique book - I'm sure I've never come across anything like this. And Tara was very nice to begin with :).
DeleteI love the sound of this book! It's not often a book comes around with such a great message to teens! :)
ReplyDeleteTrue - I hope it does well and succeeds in spreading the message :).
DeleteI like the idea of an Incredibly Shrinking Woman YA story- especially because I see the struggle in my lovely nieces- to have the perfect bodies, the perfect makeup, the perfect hair, and the perfect boyfriend. Sometimes, I really hate the media. Maybe magazine covers should show real girls and women under headlines like : She made the Honor Roll or How this woman got a job, a promotion, and then her own company!
ReplyDeleteHaha, great idea. It's becoming increasingly difficult to be real women and not to be expected to conform to whatever ideals someone else puts out for us to adhere. I was born a rebel, but then again, if you're left with the chance of either follow the crowd or be alone and miserable, I suspect not everyone has the strenght to pick N°2.
DeleteI'm sure you are a great aunt are doing your best with your nieces :).
Another friend of mine read this book and really enjoyed it too. Great message and fun story idea - mixing it with a touch of sci-fi!
ReplyDeleteKaren @For What It's Worth
I'm glad to hear it made an impression on your friend! I hope I can help spread the word about it.
DeleteThis books sounds really, really great, Roberta! I love the message the author is trying to convey through it and the storyline is promising too :)) Adding it to my TBR even as I type this!
ReplyDeleteThank you on behalf of the author! *mission accomplished* :)
DeleteRoberta,
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for having me on your blog!
And to everyone who has commented, thanks so much for the kind words about my book and the adds to your to-read lists. I hope you've entered the giveaway! Maybe some of you will be getting a free copy at the end of the month!
Keep looking up,
--Tara
Tara, it was a pleasure to collaborate with you :). I hope I'm being helpful! And thank you again for the giveaway!
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